The Year Of Firsts

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name: the-year-of-firsts
description: "Get through the first year after losing someone — the birthdays, holidays, and ordinary triggers that ambush you — with a gentle plan for the hard days instead of being blindsided. Use when asked how do I get through the holidays after a death, the first birthday without them, grief is hitting me in waves, or coping with the first year of loss. Produces a map of the anticipated hard days, keep/change/skip options for each, grounding for the ambush waves, ways to include their memory, and gentle markers for when grief needs more support. Not therapy; points to grief counseling and support groups."
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# The Year of Firsts

The first year after a loss is a series of firsts — the first birthday, holiday, anniversary, and a hundred ordinary moments that ambush you. You can't avoid the grief, but you can meet it prepared instead of blindsided. This maps the hard days ahead, gives you permission and options for each, grounding for the waves that come from nowhere, and ways to keep their memory close — so the year is met with tenderness and a plan.

## What This Skill Produces

- **A hard-days map** — the anticipated triggers (anniversaries, their birthday, holidays, "firsts" like a first spring or first trip) laid out so none blindsides you
- **Permission and options per day** — for each tradition or occasion: keep it, change it, or skip it this year — all valid, your choice
- **Grounding for the waves** — simple practices for when grief ambushes you unexpectedly (breath, movement, reaching a person, letting it come)
- **Ways to include their memory** — rituals big or small that keep them present rather than pretending they're gone
- **A support-people plan** — who to tell in advance about hard days so you're not alone in them
- **Gentle "more help" markers** — signs grief may need a counselor or group, offered without alarm

## Required Inputs

Ask for these if not provided:
- **Who you lost** — and roughly when, so we can map the calendar ahead
- **The hard days you're dreading** — if you already know some
- **Your traditions** — what occasions involved them, so we can plan each
- **Your support** — who's around, so the plan isn't solitary

## Framework: Anticipate, Permit, Ground, Remember

1. **Name the days ahead.** Put the anticipated triggers on a calendar — dread shrinks when it's specific and planned-for rather than lurking.
2. **Give permission for each.** Every hard day has three fine options — keep the tradition, change it, or skip it. There's no wrong grief; choice reduces guilt.
3. **Ground the ambush waves.** The out-of-nowhere waves are normal — a few simple practices (breathe, move, reach someone, let it move through) make them survivable.
4. **Keep their memory in it.** Including them — a toast, an empty chair honored, a shared story — often hurts less than avoidance.
5. **Don't do the hard days alone.** Tell a support person in advance which days will be hard, so someone's there.
6. **Watch gently for stuck grief.** If it's not moving at all after a long time, or safety is a concern, that's a sign to reach a counselor — offered kindly, not as a verdict.

## Output Format

### The year of firsts: [who you lost]

**Hard days ahead:** [anniversary · their birthday · holidays · seasonal/first-time triggers].
**For each — your options:** [keep / change / skip — all valid].
**When a wave hits:** [breathe · move · reach a person · let it come — it passes].
**Keep them close:** [a ritual or two that includes their memory].
**Tell someone in advance:** [who to have beside you on the marked days].
**If grief stays stuck:** [gentle signs to reach a grief counselor or group].

> Not therapy. Grief counseling, support groups, and (if there's any concern about safety) a crisis line are there — reaching out is strength, not weakness.

## Quality Checks
- [ ] Maps the specific anticipated hard days ahead
- [ ] Gives keep/change/skip permission for each, guilt-free
- [ ] Offers grounding for unexpected grief waves
- [ ] Includes ways to honor the person's memory
- [ ] Plans support in advance; flags stuck grief gently, with resources

## Anti-Patterns
- **"You should be over it"** timelines — grief has no schedule.
- **Forcing traditions** unchanged when changing or skipping would be kinder.
- **Facing the marked days alone** with no one told in advance.
- **Avoiding all mention** of the person as if that helps.
- **Pathologizing normal grief** — or missing genuine warning signs.

## Example Trigger Phrases
- "How do I get through the holidays without them this year?"
- "The first birthday without my mom is coming and I'm dreading it."
- "Grief keeps hitting me in waves out of nowhere."
- "How do I survive the first year after losing my partner?"
- "Should we keep our traditions or change them this year?"